I’ve always suffered from a slight lack of confidence in my abilities, which I think, or at least I hope, has helped to keep me on the right side of the line between confidence and arrogance.
I recently bought a drum kit, some ten years after first wanting to buy one. I’ve treated myself to some Roland V-Drums, which are pretty damn amazing. Living in flats for the foreseeable future, an electronic drum kit was pretty much the only option. The challenge now is to make it worth the wait – I have to learn to play.
The last few months at work have been mentally tiring and intellectually gruelling. I feel like a fraud every time I use any derivation of the word intellectual, but I think it’s fair to say that my work is more intellectually demanding than that of most lawyers. Periodically, I sincerely lament the fact that I am not more intelligent. I see the ease and the speed with which people process information and new concepts and it makes me feel nauseous. I 'm not fishing.
My dear friend Patrick is going to start teaching me French soon. One of these days I will be fluent.
Close friends and family aside, I can’t help but feel occasionally under-appreciated. I seem to spend most of my life trying, and I’d like to spend more of it just living.
1 comments:
I used to work with someone that looked very much like you. Seeing your picture reminds me of those good-old-day :)
Funny how much deep we fall in love. And if that was not enough, I bumped into one of Martina Cole Books. The book talked about long-lost loves. You should read it.
Great blog BTW :)
Helen Neely
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